So, I have this thing with standing backflip. I’m terribly scared of it. I got to do it by myself once, about a year after I’d started doing gymnastics. I enjoyed it for a week, left for Christmas holidays, and came back without it…
I don’t know why, I can’t explain it, but now it just freaks me out. I stand there, trying to do it, and feel like I just don’t know how. It’s been like that forever. Embarrassing and hopeless…
But this week I’ve had a breakthrough! I put several mats by the edge of a foam pit and started doing it by myself into the pit (the coach helping me at first). Somehow that set-up made me feel more (or less 🙂 ) safe! My heart still jumps out of my chest, hands are shaking, but I can do it by myself! And doing that continuously for several days helped me moving it to the fast track (with my coach spotting for now). I sooooo want it to work! It’s my dream move! I hope I’m on the way there…